I wish it was 24/7 but it’s not. There are times I can feel you by my side... I am so grateful for those little moments. I’m so sorry things couldn’t have been different but I fight every day for the life you taught me that I deserve. I miss you constantly & it honestly breaks my heart daily. But I’m working hard to heal. No words explain how desperately I wish you was still here... Too many people love & miss you.. feels as if.. just maybe? Maybe things could be have been different. I never want to forget our laughter, chats, heart to hearts. I never want to forget all those special words said in private. I genuinely can’t wait for the day I have my own family & can tell them our short but forever important tales... tell them of the man who forever means the entire world to me. Always Richie, always. Sometimes I still dream of you & I wake up crying. We had the smallest chance... I wish we was given even just half a chance. Missing you daily, love you forever xx